I'm having a day of paralysis. Everything I try or start to do somehow gets set back so there is nothing tangible to show for my work. I just feel paralysed- it's supposed to snow but that hasn't started yet, I'm supposed to be working on an assignment but I haven't started it, I tried calling nurse recruiters but for some reason nobody is working today, I made a new resume but the career specialist at school is out of the office. Everything is delayed.

I am trying to finally get a job. I've been calling an average on one nurse recruiter a day and nobody has anything for me. Maybe I am being too particular. I can't commit to a start date because I don't know if I have been accepted into a two week cancer researcher training program yet. I am able to commit to working for the next few years for wherever I find a job, but they don't seem to care about that. They just want to be sure that I can do the six week training program before I start. And I can't break that training program up to meet my scheduling needs.

This is a problem of overeducation. I know I am going to be a good nurse and any place will be lucky to have me. I have great credentials. But I don't have the job experience they want, and they don't care about anything else. This is very frustrating for me.

You may remember the disaster I had last semester with an instructor who insisted that I get a job and stop following my academic pursuits. That was the least constructive advice I EVER received from anyone. I have since been trying to find work butnobody is interested in hiring me without any experience. This has completely destroyed my professional self esteem. There's this vicious system in nursing that states that you aren't a REAL nurse unless you've worked on a hospital floor for at least two years. stupid stupid system of women undercutting the achievements of other women. This is a complex feminist issue involving the deep-rooted inferiority complex women have in the professional realm. Any one who desires to step out and make change is beaten down by a stupid stupid system.

I'm just whining. This is the thing I didn't want to get involved with in nursing and now I am neck deep in the muck of it all.