updating from beautiful portland oregon. what a treat. a treat except that I don't have all my cookies on this computer so I don't know what the passwords for all those great protected diaries. Can't catch up on my dear friends. a shame.

Sunday was a pretty hard day. I need to learn to not be so hard on myself, you know? I say something and immediately feel completely foolish. Then I beat myself up for it, even though i know in the big picture nobody cares. stupid. there I go again, little miss beat up girl.

The training program is for people interested in doing cancer research with native americans. It's a trip to be in a classroom with solely indigenous people. I haven't had an experience like this since i was a little kid and went to an all native summer school. It's so cool. I was thinking about it this morning- when I went to nursing school I never thought i would be in a class with just women and then all of a sudden there I was, surrounded by women.

So now I am in classes with smart, motivated indians and we're all going places and doing things. I don't have to explain myself to anyone about what I am doing or where I am going. how refreshing.

class is about to start. tata.