sitting in computer lab in oregon. I am supposed to be using this time to search the computer database for information on cancer pain. or more specifically, a ridiculous search combining "native american" and "american indian" and "cancer" and "pain" and "end of life" and then throwing up my hands because it is all so frustrating. erg. especially when I have a good database at home that I use instead.

I had a hard day yesterday- trying to remind myself that this is all a worthwhile endeavor and that my whole life will not be limited to begging for grants and the end result is worth it.

not easy. I need a little time to myself.